Monday, January 28, 2008

CRAP - and I just hate this.

Define CRAP. First, it's a noun. Second, it's a subtle substitution for the scandalous word, shit. Third, it's a CRAP. CRAP CRAP CRAP! Ugh! CRAP! I just hate this.


For the past few days I found myself more irritable than the previous days or weeks. If my parents wanted me to do something, like the simplest household chores, I'll just grumble about it and after that, the two gremlins would just scold me because of my disobedience. Ugh. I know I've been a bad son lately. It's just like, I dunno, honestly I couldn't understand myself as of this moment. I dunno. I can't determine whether If I'm happy or not. Everything in my life is not that perfect. But hell, my family's strong, I studied in a prestigious school, I lived in a concrete house, I have lots of clothes to wear and I eat almost 6 times a day. So practically there's always a reason why I should be HAPPY with my life. Ugh. I'm so stupid. Am I experiencing the crucial stage of a teenager? Am I a bipolar teen? Do I need to consult a psychiatrist? OR am I just overreacting?!


I dunno. Kung may hihingiin ako sa kanila, ibibigay agad nila sa akin but if they asked me a LITTLE FAVOR, tinatanggihan ko. Ugh. I'm so ashamed with my stupid behavior. I know. I'm not an ideal son that they had wished for. I'm so sorry. I know you can't read this but it's just I'm very disappointed to myself. My actions lately were very frustrating. I know both of you were disappointed to me. But it's just partly I can't just blame myself. I'm trying my best to be good, but it's JUST... JUST.... UGH. I dunno. Crap.


Every dinner, they would just give me painful sermons. It's my own FAULT though but hell, I just wished that I'm deaf and I will never hear those upsetting sermons. Uggh. Erase erase. But I don't wanna be a disabled person. I just hate the way things that are getting on to me.


I'm a happy and optimistic person. I have always a positive views in life. If a certain problem arises, I would look forward to solve that dilemma in no time. BUT. Ugh. Never mind.

And I just hate myself for being so STUPID lately. :((

22 comments:

  1. karleee9:48 PM

    eet iz ze hormones, see. but zey will pass, you just wait :D

    crap is studying all night for a quiz and finding out that the quiz is cancelled.
    crap is getting a class cancelled so you can go to a venue earlier then finding out that the cancelled class is to be replaced with Math class.
    crap is paying the jeep just before the driver tells you he's not going to your destination.

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  2. "crap is paying the jeep just before the driver tells you he's not going to your destination."

    and that's gonna be the crappiest of all. hahaha. i should write a post nlng about different crappy situations and how to deal with it. :D bwahhahaha

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  3. andrew king9:55 PM

    Poor thing...............I've seen worse treatment I assure you...I think......

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  4. hahahha. ows? are yah sure? :D

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  5. I can relate. plus I feel that I'm ruining my life on purpose. haha:))

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  6. andrew king11:17 PM

    want an example....................

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  7. raia:

    HAHAY. buhay talaga oo. hmmm. XD

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  8. carmigz10:08 PM

    Hey don't worry, normal lang yan. Hindi ko nga alam kung bakit ngayon ka lang dumadaan jan eh magka age tayo 'di ba?! Hahaha! =P

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  9. AHAHAHAHAHA I never thought you were so mean :)))))

    Aaw don't worry, you're not the only one who is experiencing this. Wag na init ulooo, isang pansit canton lang katapat niyan Renz :)))))

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  10. cm:

    actually. mas grabe noon, ung mga fifteen pa ako. tas mejo nwala na nung 16 ako til the first sem. ewan ko lang kung bat bumabalik ung "evil" side ko. waaaa :D

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  11. bwahahhaha. most especially pag WALA ako sa mood. waaa. esp. din kung STRESSED, kulang na ang tulog ko. hahahah lol. hahahy. OO NGA! pansit canton plus cold frap equals ... nirvana. bwahahha

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  12. O kita mo na? Keri mo naman pala eee :D

    Kaya yaaan! Mag midnight snack ka ule :)))))

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  13. and i still had ONE. ISA nlng pansit canton ko !!! waaa. bukas pa mag gogrocery si mama deary :D

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  14. hahahaha sige idamay mo na lang ako diyan sa pansit canton mo :))))) at ang lahat ng mga taong nagugutom sa buong mundo :)))))

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  15. WAAAHAHAHAH. lol. most especially sa africa. WEEE :D gusto mo ng isang strand ng pansit? hahha. cguro mamayang 1 am ko pa yan kakainin :D

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  16. isang strand? wow nakaka touch naman. parang di pa ata sasayad yun sa esophagus ko. :)))))

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  17. BWAHAHAHHA :D SABAW. weeeeee. :D

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  18. ahahahaha wala na tayong topic. :)))) sige na alis na ko *feeling ym talaga?* kelangang bumawi ng tuloooog.

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  19. WEEE. may isesearch pa akong speeches for my comm3. weeee. pseudoym kasi ang multiply. :D weee :D

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  20. arytee :) goodluck sa masabaw mong buhay :)))

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