Saturday, April 12, 2008

I hate these conundrums

I’ve been thinking of this a million times already.


When I was in third year high school, I really want to take Chemical Engineering since Chemistry really excites my brain cells. I don’t know. My classmates find me weird (and admittedly, a dork) since Chem’s a hard subject. I don’t care. It’s pretty interesting. So I said to myself that I’ll take Chem Eng. in Diliman. My mom’s quite giddy about it but my dad’s not. Manila is a dangerous place. Manila is dirty. Manila is Manila. Manila will always be Manila. Talk to my hand. Blabberisms.

Fourth Year. The Senior Life. The last year of my highschool life. It is the year of entrance exams, aptitude tests and dreadful projects. I was keyed up the moment I acquired my UPCAT Application Form. The moment I arrived at my domicile, I realized something’s wrong. I only felt confusion. Confused whether if I’ll pursue my study in Diliman or not. So I grabbed a pencil and initially wrote UP Manila as my first choice of campus. I wrote BS Biochemistry as my first choice and Biology as my second choice of course. Mindanao’s my second campus and I had no choice but to write Bio and Food Tech as my first and second choice of course respectively.

When my mom saw my UPCAT application form, she immediately ordered me to swap my first and second campus choices. It’s just dad would not approve of my decision of studying in Manila even if I passed on Manila. Kahit ma oblation scholar pa ako, he would still not approve on it. Sigh.

So, yeah, mom gave a wonderful suggestion. Take Bio in Mindanao and have my medicine proper in Manila. In my life, I didn’t think of taking Bio in college. It’s not like I hate Bio (I love Bio okay?), but, I don’t know. Today, I have no regrets of taking Bio since I do have good grades, which means I am still interested on this course and of course, I have you guys (my uber corny yet perky classmates). Nope. That’s not a problem. The thing is, the “unnecessary” what-if-thoughts keep on intruding my subconscious mind.


What if dad’s not that strict? What if I’m in Manila right now? Will I get killed by those rugby mobsters? Will I ever survive the lifestyle of Manila?



Ugh. Call me ambitious but in my entire life, I dream of being a MYX Veejay, a commercial model, a composer, a Graphic Artist, a Molecular Biologist, an Astronaut, a Chemist, a Chemical Engineer, an Air Traffic Controller, a Pilot, a Meteorologist, a Climatologist, a Nuclear Physicist, a Geneticist, and a Civil Engineer.


I may act like a kid who always dream of big professions here in the planet but hey, dreaming of being successful in the future would be a great help, right? And yeah, I was elicited to write this post since my mom’s childhood friend just took a visit on our home. Yes, she’s not ordinary, she’s extraordinary. She’s clairvoyant. I was mesmerized by her ability since she can read on what’s on my mind (like this) and she even gave an advice to mom that she should adjust on to my mood. She’s right, sometimes, I’m moody. And heck! I just only met her today! She claimed that I had a bright future. I'll be in Australia or in London. But something lacks on to my future life. And I can’t tell you about that. :))

63 comments:

  1. Ugh. Call me ambitious but in my entire life, I dream of being a MYX Veejay, a commercial model, a composer, a Graphic Artist, a Molecular Biologist, an Astronaut, a Chemist, a Chemical Engineer, an Air Traffic Controller, a Pilot, a Meteorologist, a Climatologist, a Nuclear Physicist, a Geneticist, and a Civil Engineer.

    di nman masama mangarap eh.. :]
    dream big kapamilya! (mag-plug bah?)

    ps: fc ko xDD

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  2. hehehe :)) certified kapamilya jud ka :)) lol. onga. hindi nman masamang mangarap right? at least diba, parang may patutunguhan din sa buhay else, if you'll not work for it.

    lol.

    cge lang gud. since friends mo ni lalalalyle, friend pud tika. naks. buotbuot :)

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  3. nyahah. ndi rin. more of, ka-nickelodeon or ka-myx :]]
    jan kase palagi nakatambay tv ko eh..

    at least diba, parang may patutunguhan din sa buhay else, if you'll not work for it.
    i second the motion ^^

    haha. prens nata! *makes the thumb sign*
    basi ma myx vj dy ka. ohdiba! may pren na ako na celebrity =P
    weeeee!..

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  4. hehehe. katawanan man ka uie :)) LOL. hhahaha. unta ma myx vj ko LOL. as naman no naa koy pag-asa! :))) bwahahahah :))

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  5. wow. compliment ^^
    usahay rman gud ko ingnan ug kataw-anan!!
    yeheS! im funnnyyy!!! :DD
    thank you renz ^^ (renz ba nme mo?)

    meron kaya.
    remember, habang may buhay, may PAG-ASA :]]

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  6. hahahhaha :)) PAG-ASA. at kapag may PAG-ASA, may bagyo't el niño. uggghhh. sabaaaawwwww. corny. HAHAHAH :))

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  7. atleast gets ko joke mo :DD
    kakahiya kng hindi. pwahaha..

    vj renz na tatawag ko sau, ok? :]

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  8. isa lang ang masasabi ko: CHAR

    ay wait. dalawa pala: BUYAG! LOL. =)))))

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  9. bwahaha. uki :]]
    from now on, vj renz na talaga ^_______^

    vj renz vj renz vj renz vj renz vj renz vj renz vj renz vj renz vj renz vj renz vj renz vj renz vj renz vj renz vj renz vj renz vj renz vj renz vj renz vj renz vj renz vj renz vj renz vj renz vj renz vj renz vj renz vj renz vj renz vj renz

    hanggang sa magsawa ako, ay ikaw pala. nyahaha..
    kulit noh?

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  10. HAHAHAHA. dili man klaro na kulit ka. lol. HAHAHA :))) cge lang kulit man pud ko kaayo :))

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  11. apirrr!!! *pakk! -> sound effects*
    hahahaha.. x]]

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  12. i agree! it's really not bad to dream big kapamilya! kung mangarap na lang gani ta, ato nang dakuon. diri na lang gani mudako atong aspirations. hehehe.

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  13. very well said kim. bravo. clapclap.

    diba, libre na gani ta mangarap.. so y not choknut kung mngarap diba? DREAM BIG KAPAMILYA ANG DRAMA. as long as you work with it :)

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  14. waaa tae. mag cross reg ka pala sa diliman?

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  15. LOL. iniisip ko rin iyan. gusto kong mag bio dun, or better, mbb [yea, sooo ambisioso].. pero like 2.00 ang cut-off ng GWA doon tapos 1.80 ang gwa. so pwede. but i think di pa rin papayag si papa. takte.

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  16. hahaha. at least di naman far out mga subjects dun sa dil.. ma credit man yan ata lahat diba?

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  17. yepyep! almost the same lang mga subjects dun.. may extrang units lang ako i take ata, like molecular microbiology subjects :)

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  18. ah grabeeehhh renzyyy! nosebleed naman yan ui!

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  19. JUUUUUUUUDDDDD! like, molecular level ng lahat ng mga microbes, kailangan pang pag aralan. oonga naman. kaya nga pag-aralan sila, kasi nga, mbb, molecular bio and biotech. hahaha :))

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  20. hahaha. hiramin mo nalang utak ni dr. rasco. joke! hehehe

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  21. HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAAHA. bueeeeeennnnnnggggg! kay sir rasco man jud.. bitawbitaw. expert baya yan siya. parang alphabet lang sa kanya ang dna codes/strands/chromosomes or whatver tawag mo jan. hahahha :))))

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  22. hahahah. well gudluck sa iyo renzy! :)) tae tae tae! hehehhe

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  23. well well well. since highschool pa yan ha! the TAE madness. hahaha. tama pala. si miles, shitlord! BWAHAHAHA. ooo takte. miss ko naa ang high school :)) tae.

    salamat carmi! :D

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  24. exagge haha mapatay ka sa rugby mobsters LOL

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  25. lagi! samok kaayo akong papa. OA kaayo. hahaha. but i must admit na mas delikado dira.. pero like. kung extra cautious and dile ka magtinanga.. mabuhi man ghapon ka. :)) snayan lang yan diba? :))

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  26. haha nakadepende na sa imo how responsible enough especially in choosing d ryt kind of friends to tag along haha

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  27. hahahaha :)) tama tama! hay.. cge nlng. 2 years from now, naa na ko dira. weeee. sa ust ghapon ka mag med? :)

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  28. jaimelynn2:51 PM

    eventually, you;ll adapt to your surroundings.

    actually, Manila is not bad at all yet i still prefer to stay here in Davao..

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  29. carizza2:52 PM

    dr. renzybenzy, everything happens for a reason. so ok lang na, someday, you will be one of those medical doctors acclaimed around the world.. kahilera na nimo sila john hopkins.. who knows diba?=)

    God bless!=)

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  30. in short jai, there's no other place like home. homehomehome :) hahahha :)

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  31. carizza:

    lagi ligaya! :) hehehe. basig malay nimo. who knows jud. hehehe :) slamat! :D char uie. john hopkins man jud. =]

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  32. jaimelynn7:43 PM

    yeah!!!

    da best jud ang Davao bai!!

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  33. ahahha. layo ra kaayo ang manila. hahaha. diba pansin nimo? as early as 9 pm.. sa downtown davao. mingggaaawwww na kaayo. sa manila murag nagastart palang ang life. 24/7 mata ang mga manilenyo :) lol.

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  34. i've experienced life in Manila when we were there for the debating championships and hell! mabuang ka kung dili ka mag-tinarong. we've experienced the rush hours (9 am and 7-8 pm) and grabe ang tao. especially nung time na nag-MRT kami. soooooo dami ng tao! but we survived a week na man din. dili lang jud magtinanga. hehehe. :D

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  35. hahahha :)) lagiii. very fast ang lifestyle sa manila.

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  36. charles5:30 PM

    *psst* chemical engineering!? *blood squirts out of my nose* dats hellhard course=) but i bet u can manage=) take that up dito sa cebu.. lam mo ung university of san carlos? dito kinukuha ung mga chemical engineers=) may friend aqng CHE kakagraduate lng niya last march=)

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  37. i just looove chemistry, that's all :)) lol. oonga sabi ng tita ko [also a chemist], na maganda ang bs chem/ bs chem eng sa san carlos :)). ay wait. pati ECE da best jan. lol.

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  38. charles1:06 PM

    yup2! nice nga mga sciences dito.. high nung standards.. teacher q nga sa ph6 sira ulo! kasi nman pinahihirapan nya studyante niya.. n'guiness book kasi xa sa paghuli ng isotope! ewan anu un.. uhm.. i'm an ece student=) hirap ngang iplease mga teachers dito kaya sinasabing maganda.. kakainis=( i'm glad i'm still a regular student=)

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  39. "teacher q nga sa ph6 sira ulo! kasi nman pinahihirapan nya studyante niya.."


    lahat naman cguro ng mga teachers. mga sira ulo. lol.

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  40. charles1:22 PM

    ahahaha=) yikes! i bet to disagree!=) wag mo nman lahatin.. ung iba lng.. teka.. dka ng'oofline!? amazing.. d naman nauubos ang net connection ah!?=)

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  41. ngek. bagong gising lang ako nooohh. tsaka unlimited naman ang internet ko since dsl ako. hehehhe :))

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  42. "ahahaha=) yikes! i bet to disagree!=) wag mo nman lahatin.. ung iba lng.."


    general population lang ng teachers. but still may mga angel in disguise pa rin na teachers. in short.. masking halos tanan teachers mga yawa, naa ghapon buotan. lol.

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  43. charles1:41 PM

    BWAHAHAHA! buing! kahibaw man d i ka mgbisaya!=) incoming 2nd year nka suh?=) aim for higher grades ky it'll surely help para mg'laude=) lisud idaku sa grade f u reach 3rd-5th year na..aim high pinoy!!!

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  44. "BWAHAHAHA! buing! kahibaw man d i ka mgbisaya!=) incoming 2nd year nka suh?=) aim for higher grades ky it'll surely help para mg'laude=) lisud idaku sa grade f u reach 3rd-5th year na..aim high pinoy!!!"



    yaah . pero please ayaw pud kaayo kanang lalum kay wala na ako masabtan. lol... zero base din kayo diba? kami pd. waaaa. lagi aim high pinoy jud ang drama. :P

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  45. charles2:02 PM

    "ngek. bagong gising lang ako nooohh. tsaka unlimited naman ang internet ko since dsl ako. hehehhe :))"


    yeeha!! dsl sd mi=) lage.. mhirap buhay-unlimited.. di mo mapigilan sarili mong mg'net=)

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  46. charles2:02 PM

    "yaah . pero please ayaw pud kaayo kanang lalum kay wala na ako masabtan."


    bitaw2.. easy visayan words rpd naa nq.. don't wori=) praise God wlai apil sa amung curriculum- "local languages".. nosebleeding=)

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  47. "bitaw2.. easy visayan words rpd naa nq.. don't wori=) praise God wlai apil sa amung curriculum- "local languages".. nosebleeding=)"


    WAAAA. may book sa library namin.. ORGANIC CHEMISTRY, and take note, TAGALOG. ugh.

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  48. charles2:47 PM

    whaaat!?!?! how did they translate chemical formulas into tagalog!?!? weird.. i met this joke once with my integral calculus teacher: if filipino wud be the medium of instruction.. how do we translate square root?? kwadradong ugat?? duh!! pathetic..

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  49. "whaaat!?!?! how did they translate chemical formulas into tagalog!?!? weird.. i met this joke once with my integral calculus teacher: if filipino wud be the medium of instruction.. how do we translate square root?? kwadradong ugat?? duh!! pathetic.."


    as in lahat pure tagalog. like duuh. pati mga compounds.. "tagalize" ang spelling pero sounds like pa rin siya in english.. gets?? parang

    diaminetetracholorocobalt ---

    dayamintetraklorokobalt. something ana. EEEKKK.

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  50. charles3:37 PM

    "diaminetetracholorocobalt ---

    dayamintetraklorokobalt. something ana. EEEKKK."



    weeeiiirrrddd!!! n'unsa nman ni sila ui.. way pakisama!=) its not easy to memorize english compounds.. tagalog pa kaha!?!?!

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  51. HAHAHAHA. korek. hahaha. Chemistry pa lang na word:

    KIMIKA. eeeek. disaster.

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  52. charles4:05 PM

    i wish skuls won't use dat book! it's a total mayhem=)

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  53. na abolish na ata na. murag 70's pa na na curriculum. lol.

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  54. charles4:14 PM

    noh? nakagamit jd d i cla ana!?!? tsk3.. bad cheetah!! ahahaha=) writer ka ba ng skulpaper ninu dati!?!? ur good at writing blogs huh!!=)

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  55. yepyep! since elementary. ngek. feel ko marami pa rn akong "subtle" grammatical errors.

    hehehe. well thanks :)

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  56. charles4:27 PM

    professionals lng ang hindi nagkakamali=) (my opinion of course!) do u write stories and poems as well!? kapoi man type ui mao gne bare kaau aqng site=) ahihihi=) mypag isuwat=)

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  57. ngek. mas lingaw mag tuslok ug keyboard. lol. wala lang. kapoi ang de-mano na style. lol.

    and yeah. i used to write short stories and poems.. pero kapoi naman uie. hahaha

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  58. charles10:09 PM

    weee=) karun pa q kareply.. my dad was beeping outside b4 you replied.. nilakaw mi sa ayala mall=) mao 2 gdali2 intawn q ug lock sa door and left the pc open.. hahaha=)

    every1 is unique jd=) mas prefer nq mg'write instead of typing.. i'll have 1 of my compositions posted one of these summer days=)

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  59. hahahah =) mas ganahan ko typetype. though minsan pag nasa mood, mas feel ko ang pen and paper method lol.

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  60. charles10:21 PM

    =) *thumbing up* i won't argue wid u.. basig asa ta dad'on ani.. anywei, rona is becoming OA sa pbb=) kita ka!?!?

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  61. yaaahhhh. well i don't care actually. nalingaw lang ko sa episode karon, most especially nung nag dress up as mumu ang mga guardians. HAAHAAAHAAA.

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  62. charles10:26 PM

    yup2! nalingaw pd q ato.. *apir!* hahaha=) wen bigbro was talking to them wearing already their costumes=) sobrang kataw-anan!=)

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