Ineptness of Chocolates

At some point of my life, I sometimes ask if I am really happy and contented with my life. Yes I am terrifically happy with my life most especially my family exudes sanguinity. That’s one of the things that I can be proud of with my family. When I’m depressed usually brought about by stress I usually crave for chocolates since it is my comfort food. Today, I have eaten one bar of Cadburry Fruits and Nuts but surprisingly the endorphins in the chocolate bar seem to be ineffective. I don’t know but I feel down and tired.


Most probably this predicament was brought about by last week’s turmoil.


People nowadays are driving me crazy and somehow those scoundrels would be the primary cause of my insanity in the near future. I am bothered by their lunacy. First, there’s this eleven-year old boy who have been extremely furious on to me due to my honest opinion. To make things worse, the atrocious kid cursed me by using the fuck-shit-hell words. Second, there’s this bulimic pig who keeps on meddling to something even if the bulimic pig didn’t know the real event. And lastly, all those people who really crave for attention and somehow they are unconscious by it.


To be honest I was hurt. I was hurt because I really don’t know what went wrong. I was just expressing my opinion. If I weren’t honest then it would be definitely create an imminent mayhem. I was hurt because a KID cursed me to go to hell. I don’t how to react on the kid’s demonic statements – whether to be furious or to be confused. Why should the kid be that extremely furious? Sorry but my parents and my alma mater taught me to be honest, now matter what. I’m not viciously honest though because I know how to weigh things, whether if my brusqueness is already offensive or not. But I think it wasn’t. The rascal had indeed sucked all of my patience. I tried to stretch it but I already reached the threshold of its elasticity.


Okay, so much for that. I don’t want to delve with this crap.


And now I feel a little bit okay, thanks to blogging services provided by the internet.


Two things.

First, no matter how hard you try to have a happy disposition in life, there are still rogues who would try to destroy your day desperately.

Second, to be nice is one of the most difficult challenges of LIFE. Then again, those fraught rogues try to provoke you.

Life isn’t fair sometimes.
But if the world is in utopia, it would be rather boring.


Sheeeesh.

Frustrations and Ludicrousness

I really really really REAAALLLLLYYYYY (take note of the emphasis) hate myself when it comes to remembering even the smallest details of a certain exam. Like, whenever I remember it, I feel the deepest frustrations on to me for either not having the right answer or simply just forgetting the simplest term. Ironically, I usually answer the hardest question correctly and the easiest one would be my mistake.

A dim-witted gaffe…

I wish that I’ll forget the exam questions right after I passed the paper and just live in a normal life. Until now, I am really bothered by it.

So much for that. I know I can’t amend my life unless a brilliant Physicist will invent a time machine.


You see? Life is an irreversible process. Once you have done a thing, say a mistake, you must live by it and take it as a significant part of your life. Wait. I shouldn’t use YOUR. This applies on to me, right now.

And I’m on the verge of having an emotional outbreak. Mine is unique though. When I have an emotional outbreak, I just stare in the blank wall for at least three hours and I don’t think anything else except to breathe and blink.

I know it’s a crazy idea but true enough it’s an effective way…

TO BE INSANE!

You may ask why I’m wasting my time in the internet doing this entry. Apparently, we aren’t obliged to just read, study, read, study then the cycle repeats all over again. Our brain would eventually get bored with this cycle.

The perfect idea is this: dancing and singing while studying will make your brain cells kicking and alive.


Smile. Life is a wonderful story to tell.

And I’m not telling about something to someone. And that someone is a no one. And no one is allowed to ask. And now I’ll ask you one thing: Did you ever ask the question why I’m wasting my time in the cyberspace?

Provide me an answer and I’ll provide you with millions of questions about life.

And life is like a fairytale. And a fairytale is a wonderful story to tell. So as life. And my life is becoming boring. And boring sponges live under the deep blue sea. And I can’t see a bright day ahead. And the bright light is shining through my way.

Am I in heaven or in my dog’s haven? I wasn’t given a time to think about this way. And this is not the right way to exercise my brain. My brain is still in normal condition. And normal isn’t normal at all.

The world is full of something which someone’s getting on to it.


Bring it on.
Damn it.


And my insights about life are getting unsubstantiated.
I am getting absurd.
PERIOD.

RANDOM-EY BALONEY

Every man's life needs RESPECT. I just damn need that 7-lettered word. Damn it. I know I've been too harsh for the past few days but hell, you just blurt out all my weaknesses. Please please, OH PLEASE. I just need some little appreciation on my accomplishments in life. It may be little or worse, useless for you but it plays a big role to my self being. Hey you, fatty scum! You're so insensitive. But I just realize that you just can't relate to my life. Damn. I don't care. Shoot. ARE YOU STRESSED? Yes. Me too. So please dad, I'm trying my best to do good not just in school but also in home. I know you can understand me and I also understand your situation. INTERPERSONAL MAELSTROM. But please, a little appreciation on my accomplishments, no matter how little it is could make my day complete. Seriously.


Tonight, I'm trying to finish my two speeches as part of my Comm 3 project - persuasive and informative speech. Good thing, my teacher picked good topics for my speeches - American Culture and its influence to the Filipino Culture (Informative speech) and Cyberbullying (Persuasive speech). Mabuti na hindi "CHANGE THE TOPIC" ang nakasulat sa topics ko. Haha.


It's the second week of February and I still had six weeks to suffer from sleep dispossession, SIX GRUELING WEEKS. Maundy Thursday, Good Friday, Black Saturday and Easter Sunday will be celebrated earlier than last year. I think it's on third week of March, and our FINALS WEEK would be on the 24th day of March 'til the 31st day of March. May God help us.


Since the last semester, I'm planning to take the advance class in Physics 3 this summer. I'm also into Statistics. But July said that it would be difficult if I take Physics and Stat. Physics lang, buong magdamagan na yan. Lecture in the morning, and lab sessions in the afternoon. Oh dear. So yeah, If I'll take Physics this summer, it would not be a hard time for me for the next semester. But wait. I should take another subject equivalent to Physics 3, or any 3-unit subject in school. I want to take Math 26 (Analytic Geometry and Calculus I). But magcoconflict din yan sa Botany 3 Lab ko. Crap. I want to take Stat 1, but the schedule posted in the school's quite ambiguous. Hay. Come what may.


I should search for any topics in Applied Physics for my Nat Sci 1. The teacher required us to make a 15-page SUMMARY report on any achievements on Applied Physics and a power point presentation on it. But he also said that he wouldn't read the 15-page summary. He's only interested in the PPT presentation. CRAP.

"THINK TWICE BEFORE YOU FINALIZE YOUR DECISIONS IN LIFE"

I would like to leave you this annoying but also funny quote made by my friends.

"Q: WHAT DOES SHINES DO BEST?
A: STARS"

BWAHAHAHHA =))

CRAP - and I just hate this.

Define CRAP. First, it's a noun. Second, it's a subtle substitution for the scandalous word, shit. Third, it's a CRAP. CRAP CRAP CRAP! Ugh! CRAP! I just hate this.


For the past few days I found myself more irritable than the previous days or weeks. If my parents wanted me to do something, like the simplest household chores, I'll just grumble about it and after that, the two gremlins would just scold me because of my disobedience. Ugh. I know I've been a bad son lately. It's just like, I dunno, honestly I couldn't understand myself as of this moment. I dunno. I can't determine whether If I'm happy or not. Everything in my life is not that perfect. But hell, my family's strong, I studied in a prestigious school, I lived in a concrete house, I have lots of clothes to wear and I eat almost 6 times a day. So practically there's always a reason why I should be HAPPY with my life. Ugh. I'm so stupid. Am I experiencing the crucial stage of a teenager? Am I a bipolar teen? Do I need to consult a psychiatrist? OR am I just overreacting?!


I dunno. Kung may hihingiin ako sa kanila, ibibigay agad nila sa akin but if they asked me a LITTLE FAVOR, tinatanggihan ko. Ugh. I'm so ashamed with my stupid behavior. I know. I'm not an ideal son that they had wished for. I'm so sorry. I know you can't read this but it's just I'm very disappointed to myself. My actions lately were very frustrating. I know both of you were disappointed to me. But it's just partly I can't just blame myself. I'm trying my best to be good, but it's JUST... JUST.... UGH. I dunno. Crap.


Every dinner, they would just give me painful sermons. It's my own FAULT though but hell, I just wished that I'm deaf and I will never hear those upsetting sermons. Uggh. Erase erase. But I don't wanna be a disabled person. I just hate the way things that are getting on to me.


I'm a happy and optimistic person. I have always a positive views in life. If a certain problem arises, I would look forward to solve that dilemma in no time. BUT. Ugh. Never mind.

And I just hate myself for being so STUPID lately. :((