overload

It's been a while since my last update. I have been busy with a lot of things lately and it's driving me nuts, tbh. I have just received my IELTS results and I am totally okay with it. An overall score of 8.0 is not that bad for someone who isn't a native speaker of English. God knows that I tried my best in that exam, so I guess I deserve a thousand pats on the back. I think it's already enough for me to gain points in my express entry profile. I am still waiting for my WES evaluation form. According to the website, it takes a month to complete the entire process. I don't really know why it takes longer to evaluate for the purpose of IRCC. Well, I have no choice but to wait. I hate myself for being impatient and an overthinker sometimes.

This shouldn't stress me out, but I can't help it. I am not blaming the Mercury retrograde or any of those astrology shit. Shit really happens and we have to deal with it. Also, our impending transfer to Manila is kinda stressing me out, but since I am not alone with this ordeal, I guess it's a consolation, to say the least. But I still don't get it WHY ON EARTH WOULD YOU FIX SOMETHING THAT'S NOT BROKEN IN THE FIRST PLACE? Some things still keep me baffled, and I do not know why some people whom I respect have thought about it. Politics? Bureaucracy? Probably.

Also, it is true that when you encounter people whom you hate, your day's already shitty. But, I try to at least divert my attention by thinking of happy and funny thoughts. But then again, if you're working overtime, and you're with that person you hate at work, and you're sleepy and cranky as fuck, I might just snap and be a bitch. But no, I believe sarcasm is the best weapon for stupidity. LOL. Light indeed travels faster than sound. A person might look brilliant from afar until he starts talking. Stupid is forever. Lalalala.

Okay, this post is full of angst. Trust me, I am now matured and know how to handle shit things like this. Easy peasy. Ya basic.

The Making of a Psychopath

I always think that the Junior life in college is more demanding than the Sophomore life. But I didn't think that it was a million times HARDER. Damn it.


It's almost three in the morning, and yet I'm still awake. There were lots of changes that occurred during the last few weeks.



I'm not getting enough sleep.
I sleep only 5 hours a day, or worse less than that.
For the first time, schedules of making lab reports, study periods, outline won't fit in my planner anymore. Time is insufficient.
I'm suffering from nightmares - terrifying and realistic scenarios from school, some sort-of-a bad premonition.


AND MOST OF ALL...

because of these, I can't sleep well. :((


Oh yeah, no more weekends for me since I'm going to start working with my thesis starting the second week of August. God, this is terrifying.


This is killing me.

Long time no blog.
Pardon if all of my entries since June were all stress-related.


Alright, I have to sleep. I still have to go to the Vanishing Island, still thesis-related.


It seems that I'm getting stressed instead of enjoying myself with the picturesque view of it whenever I go to the beach . But I don't have a choice. I have to deal with it.



There's no turning back; a point of no return.
Time is crucial.



Oh yeah, a big good luck to me. Four exams starting Monday and will end on Thursday. On Friday, I should start passing the first draft of my report in Molecular Biology. Plus, I think the practices in cheerdance would be, uhmmm, more tedious than I expect.

Ang buhay ng Iskolar ng Bayan. Bow. RAAAAR!

Eye to Eye Through The Storm

Fiiiiiinnnnaaalllllyyyy.



I can't believe that I actually survived this week, hell week to be precise. I think I need to detoxify my body. Stress is toxic, you know. I need..uhhhhh.. no... I HAVE to watch Half-Blood Prince tomorrow. Damn. Great, I have so many things in my mind.


I have to talk with that BFAR Guy or to my aunt regarding my thesis.
I have to gather lots of journals about my thesis. Crap.
I have to talk with Mamayko's RAs (research assistants) because I want to start with my experiment.
I have to pass the second draft of my outline even if I'm not enrolled with BIO200a.
I have to memorize the skeletal system of the ff: Chondrichthyes, Osteichthyes, amphibians, reptiles, birds and mammals.
I have to study Plant Ecology Lec/Lab, Molecular Bio, and Biochem too! Damn it.


But despite these stressful activities, we still smile in front of the camera. Nice.

Anyway, I have just noticed that a LOT of people in school were sick. Last week I got sick but recovered after a few days. Moreover, people are getting paranoid with the notorious A(H1N1) virus!!! What the hell. This virus isn't that deadly compared to SARS (Severe Acute Respiratory System). Pandemonium is not necessary. Tsktsk. =/


By the way, this week, I really had an itch to read something, aside from those nerdy books from hell. I borrowed Dyan's Diary of Wimpy Kid. The first book was really funny. In fairness it was a good read. Dyan, pahiram ng second book ng Wimpy Kid! HAHAHAHA. Two weeks ago, mom finally completed the Harry Potter series (books). Scholastic had finally released the paperback edition of the last HP book (Deathly Hallows). Mom didn't hesitate to buy it despite its price - Php 575.00! Quite expensive for a paperback book. Tsk. But yeah, I'll probably start reading it this week. Well, IDK. Natatanggal lang talaga pagod ko pag nakababasa ako ng mga novels.

By the way...

Did you know that....

I signed up for the cheerdance almost a month ago. HAHAHAHAHAHA. Whatever.
Anyway, I still have lots of things to do.

The weather is killing me, literally. Have a sappy...ooopps, uhhh, HAPPY weekend everyone!

It's been a while.

Brother's not here, so as dad. Brother's attending some youth camp at UIC. But duh, he's just there because his palalabs is there too. That's what lovers are for. Bitter? Naah. I don't care.


Yeah, a lot of things have occurred in the past few weeks.

The King of Pop is dead.
Michael Jackson is dead.
The event organizer (or sponsor?) of MJ's concert will soon face bankruptcy due to MJ's sudden demise.
Only one survived an Airbus A310 Yemen-based aircraft crashed near the Indian Ocean (or not?).
Heal the world, make it a better place.
The adminstration pipz of UPMin requires students to wear ID due to incoherent reasons.

Forgive me if the headlines were not that accurate. I rarely watch the idiot box. I haven't watched a single episode of May Bukas Pa, Only You, Tayong Dalawa, SNN, Bandila and the late night documentary shows. You see, I'm getting used with this behavior since the moment I've entered college.

Bro!
Bes!
Bok, walang talu-talo!
Showbiz news buuuuwkwaaassss!
Oo, Crizzzy, Euh-heh-heh-heh-heh

Ayshizzzzz.

Two weeks ago, I saw something in the National Bookstore, my favorite tambayan. The serial killer of the serial killers is already out in NBS! But wait there's more! Dexter's three books were fused to one book and cost around 795 pesos (compared to the price if you buy the three books individually, at 315 pesos per book). I should buy that book. YES. Gad, if only I had enough time. Sige lang.


Moving on...

Apparently, I am beginning to appreciate the sheer ugliness of my schedule. I used to hate it because every TTh, my class starts at 1.00pm and ends at 7.00pm and every WF, it will start at 8.30am and ends at 1 in the afternoon. Pffft. But heck, I just realized that I have enough time to sleep. As in SLEEEEEEPPPPPP.


Oh yeah, I have to admit that I have a hard time on writing something in Tagalog. It's not that I'm bobo in Tagalog, or not used to it (heck I speak Tagalog in the house all the time)... it's just... uhm... it's been three years since my last composition in Sulating Pangwakas. What a lame excuse, but SRSLY. I'm getting used with the English language. I write in English. I seldom write an entry in Tagalog. I am more comfortable with English than in Tagalog I found the latter to be more difficult when it comes to translating or associating things with words...errr...something like that.

I thought FIL1 wouldn't be that significant to our life. But yeah, I (or we) should take this course whether I (or we) like it or not. Various professors from the Math, Bio and Chem departments do not use Tagalog as their primary language on teaching. My God! I can't imagine if Biochem and Organic Chem would be taught in Tagalog. Yak no, It's not that I don't uphold the state of being Nationalistic per se, but it's very difficult. Translate cholesterol, amino acids, Ketone, Adenosine Triphosphatase in Tagalog please, and you'll know the reason why. Pffft. Anyway, we'll perform something during the Linggo ng Wika. Hmmm.


Good news for everyone, especially for my schoolmates - we're going to have the Torch Night and the Freshmen Night!!! Yahoo! I'm 75% certain about this, let's just wait for the final verdict guys.



YESSSSS! No NSTP2 tomorrow!!!

Early cleavage stage.

Today is Friday, free day. But heck, tomorrow, I should start memorizing those improtant terms. Hay, hopefully di ako mauubusan ng dugo sa ZOO113. Next week's gonna be our first laboratory exam in ZOO113 (Comparative Vertebrate Anatomy).

....and it's a moving exam.


Pusikatmemeng, I hate moving exams.


Bio students of UPLB, sinong tumetake ng ZOO113 this sem? HAHAHAHA. Aja aja aja.


Ta-ta-ta for now.

XX-XX,
you know I love her.

(Sa makagets lang. :P)

Still Holding On

Surprisingly, I managed to finish the grueling enrolment process today. I thought na susulitin ‘ko ang four days. Phew =)

Yes final na talaga 'tung schedule ko.

Anyway, I think I’m lucky. After endless hours of waiting, standing, running, walking, jeep-ing, HH-ing around the campus, I am finally enrolled and I’m already a junior student of BS Bio. Can you believe that? I mean it’s was like, time runs so fast. Two years ago, I entered the campus of UPMin and I was all alone, thinking if I will survive on this kind of environment and situation. New school, new environment, new teachers and new set of classmates… and the only thing that came on my mind at that time was this: Are my classmates friendly? At first I envy my high school classmates because most of them went to the same school together, like in San Pedro and Ateneo de Davao and had the same courses like Nursing and Accountancy. I thought that I would regret this decision I made back in my senior year in high school. I took the road less traveled.



Seriously.




Then, after two years, here I am writing this entry and I’m still in awe. Two years seemed like two months. I’m indeed a survivor of this challenge. I have ACTUALLY experienced funny experiences that made my first two years in UP a memorable one.

I have invited by certain fraternities to attend orientations about their group. But I didn’t join because, wala lang.

Because of the unique system of UP, I actually gained friends from different courses and different year levels in UPMin (palibasa the population of UPMin isn’t that big, almost a thousand students).

I have slept many times inside the classroom. The most intense was during reporting in Nat Sci 2, my professor sat beside me to listen to the report. And I was on his left side, dozing, as if he wasn’t there.

I haven’t slept for more than 24 hours, thanks to that shitty Genetics report.
For the first time in my life, I flunked a subject and have to retake it this semester.
Nakabasag na ako ng separatory funnel during the synthesis of tert-butyl in our Organic Chem Lab last year. And it cost around 3,600 pesos.

What else?



Naaah.


So now, I am about to enter the second half of my college life.

This means more stressful activities, field trips, more sleepless nights and I think I’ll get used to the pungent smell of formalin, thanks to ZOO113 (Comparative Vertebrate Anatomy). Even if I didn’t enroll myself to BIO 200a (Outline), I’ll just start with my thesis and have continuous updates from my adviser. Lots of sacrifices should be considered. Despite all these, it would still be memorable. Ten to fifteen years from now, I’ll look back through the old times, probably browsing those wacky pictures and reading this blog. Ahhh, reminiscing those good old days…


Okay I can already feel the tension. So let’s jump and savor the last week of freedom.

This is it, all I need is to focus on my acads and I have to consider a LOT of things.


I hope I will graduate on time.
Peste. Ako pa.

Die Another Day

Apparently last night I have to sleep early since the day before yesterday I only had three hours of sleep, thanks to my summer sickness. But because of curiosity, I decided to watch another Korean flick, A Moment To Remember starring Son Ye-jin and Jung-woo Sung. Heck, I finished watching the movie around two thirty in the morning, tears poured and flowed like the river rapids of the north from my tired eyes. Damn you Koreans, ba’t ganon mga drama movies niyo? Ambigat sa dibdib! Even though I didn’t have a wife suffering from the deadly Alzheimer’s, bumigay pa rin ako. Potek.



And now I am really tired. Hope it won’t rain tomorrow, for tomorrow’s another day.


Because today, my day sucked a little bit, but at least we won the case (you know what I mean, the waiver thing). Six grueling hours of waiting for the final decision is not a joke.


It sucks when you fall in line for almost an hour and kung turn mo na, bigla lang sasabihin sa iyo ‘to, “tomorrow morning nalang, it’s already time”.

Ay, horsecrap.

So yeah, I will go to school before 8 and right now, I’ll visit my own dream land and hopefully the beautiful Son Ye-Jin is there.


Drools.

What the heck.

Series of Unfortunate Events

Today is one of the most tiring days of my life. It was my fault in the first place. I only had less than three hours of sleep. Apparently, my body won’t let me sleep if it’s not the right time. Uggh. Usually, when I go to bed around three thirty in the morning, I only have the chance to enter dreamland around five thirty. Bullcrap.

There were a lot of things that made my day weary and tiring.

First: “Why should I sign that waiver? Diba hindi na kami nag-aallow? You ask Ma’am Duy nalang to confirm this ha?”

Anak ng tae. For one hour, I thought I will spend an extra year because of this predicament. Damn. For one hour, everything went black. JOKE LANG. OA. But seriously, I went back-and-forth to CSM then to the Dorm then back to CSM just to confirm this news. Luckily, things went straight and the first problem was settled. While talking to Mon and Lyle, Cha approached me and told me bad news.

Oh-oh.


Second: “Huy pumunta ako kanina sa office ni Noggy and I think I didn’t hear your name…ewan ko lang kung nakinig ako hindi, pero parang wala…”


Kigwa. But really, thanks Cha. Then again, the dark cloud enveloped me and everything went black, again. Anxiety shrouded me and I was walking on an unlit path, the path of uncertainty. That’s the reason why I didn’t receive an SMS message from them last Saturday. Tsktsk. I have already passed all requirements, my standing was good. Weird. So I have no choice but to visit Noggy’s office. Oh yeah, I also have to buy those freakin’ plastic petri dish. At least I will be cleared and proceed with the next step of enrolment. On Noggy’s office, the problem was immediately solved; nalimutan lang talaga ako ni Atty. Joy. Sigh. At last, I have received the certificate ng order to enroll. I only have to finalize my subjects tomorrow. But the subjects were giving me headaches.



Three: “Forbidden to enlist. Please see the Office of College Secretary!!!”


Here’s the thing. The world had undergone millions of technological advancements over the past five years. And thus, we have to suffer its consequences. Punyeta, sa sobrang high tech, hindi ako makapagenlist sa Fil1, kahit hindi siya nagcacause ng conflict sa schedule ko AND may slots pa siya. Tae. Even the Dept. Chair can’t enlist us. So he suggested to see the OCS and phewwww, it was a miracle. Nakapagenlist na ako sa Chem160 and Fil1. I thought underload ako. Waaa. At least 20 units ako this semester.



Hay ewan. Sana the committee will allow us to take CHEM160 and BIO101 together. Pffft.

I’ll call the saints.
I’ll pray.


Theme song for the day:

Idalangin mo sa Maykapal… may bukas pa.


With every step you climb another mountain
Every breath it's harder to believe
You'll make it through the pain
Weather the hurricanes
To get to that one thing (Oo, para makaenroll this first semester. Potek)

Oh by the way, this is my weird schedule. Weird. 20 units. Basta… Weird.

Of Hopes and Cheesy Letters

Okay so it sucks when worry so much about that pesky Biochem crap. Sheeesh. For three straight days, I only managed to have at least 2 hours of sleep. Well, the sleep deprivation was compensated since I went home early and had the longest nap of my life. What the. But yeah, I think I performed well in the last exam but (inhales and exhales deeply) HOPEFULLY those unwanted thoughts won’t happen. I just hate this, tired yet I can’t sleep due to stress. Sheeesh.

So last night, I was a little bit shocked when Alexis Grace left the American Idol competition. Her name was a little bit ironic, though she had a graceful exit in the said show. Wrong song choice, but I’m pretty sure Alexis would have a bright future in the music industry. Who couldn’t forget the petite woman who had dreams that can reach as far as the farthest quasar in the universe and had a powerful voice? See you around Alexis.

The competition is getting more exciting as they tour America. Hurray for the Season 8’s Top Ten!


Oh yeah I’m stuck with this predicament on how to convince my adviser to take me as her advisee, as well as writing a different letter to the Department Chair.

I was thinking about this though:

Errr, NOT. HAHAHAHA. =))

Ahhhh yes, one week to go before SUMMER (bites his nails so hard..)

Current LSS (and I really HATE LSS. Grrr.)

I've had a little bit too much, much
All of the people start to rush, start to rush by
A dizzy twisted dance, can't find my drink, oh man
Where are my keys? I lost my phone, phone
What's going on on the floor?
I love this record baby but I can't see straight anymore
Keep it cool, what's the name of this club?
I can't remember but it's alright, a-alright
Just dance, gonna be okay, da da doo-doo-mmm
Just dance, spin that record babe, da da doo-doo-mmm
Just dance, gonna be okay, d-d-d-dance
Dance, dance, just, j-j-just dance
Wish I could shut my playboy mouth, oh oh oh-oh
How'd I turn my shirt inside out? Inside outright
Control your poison babe, roses have thorns they say
And we're all getting hosed tonight, oh oh oh-oh
What's going on on the floor?
I love this record baby but I can't see straight anymore
Keep it cool, what's the name of this club?
I can't remember but it's alright, a-alright
Just dance, gonna be okay, da da doo-doo-mmm
Just dance, spin that record babe, da da doo-doo-mmm
Just dance, gonna be okay, d-d-d-dance
Dance, dance, just, j-j-just
When I come through on the dance floor checkin' out that catalog
Can't believe my eyes, so many women without a flaw
And I ain't gon' give it up, steady tryin' to pick it up like a car
I'ma hit it, I'ma hit it and flex and do it until tomorr' yeah
Shawty I can see that you got so much energy
The way you're twirlin' up them hips 'round and 'round
And now there's no reason at all why you can't leave here with me
In the meantime stay and let me watch you break it down
And dance, gonna be okay, da da doo-doo-mmm
Just dance, spin that record babe, da da doo-doo-mmm
Just dance, gonna be okay, da da doo-doo-mmm
Just dance, spin that record babe, da da doo-doo-mmm
Just dance, gonna be okay, d-d-d-dance
Dance, dance, just, j-j-just dance
Woo! Let's go!
Half psychotic, sick, hypnotic
Got my blueprint, it's symphonic
Half psychotic, sick, hypnotic
Got my blueprint electronic
Half psychotic, sick, hypnotic
Got my blueprint, it's symphonic
Half psychotic, sick, hypnotic
Got my blueprint electronic
Go! Use your muscle, carve it out, work it, hustle
I got it, just stay close enough to get it
Don't slow! Drive it, clean it, Lysol, bleed it
Spend the last dough
(I got it)
In your pocko
(I got it)
Just dance, gonna be okay, da da doo-doo-mmm
Just dance, spin that record babe, da da doo-doo-mmm
Just dance, gonna be okay, da da doo-doo-mmm
Just dance, spin that record babe, da da doo-doo-mmm
Just dance, gonna be okay, d-d-d-dance
Dance, dance, just, j-j-just dance

Transport Strike Blues

What the hell.

I thought it was going to be a normal morning until the local news had announced that there’s going to be a transport strike in which all public utility vehicles will be involved due to their protests about LTO’s (Land Transportation Office) exorbitant fines.


WELL, WELL, WELL MANONG JEEPNEY DRIVERS.

IT WAS INDEED A PERFECT DAY FOR US, DAMN IT.


You actually put our lives in danger and make our original plans ruined by your dimwitted nitpicks. Your acts were really appalling. SO WHAT if the fines were surprisingly expensive? You won’t be fined by those LTO officials IF you’re a regimented driver. An example of which, driving under the influence of alcohol would make our lives in peril. I still want to have a family, for God’s sake! I WON’T ACCEPT your idiocy as the reason of my untimely demise. Please, think of us too, the commuters. You see, this week is already our final examinations, defense for our thesis – one of the heaviest and crucial points of our lives yet you almost screwed us.


And for those desperate LTO officials, PLEASE if the driver did NOT violate any traffic rules, PLEASE I BEG YOU DO NOT look for any violations and ask the driver for a fine even if he’s innocent.


UGGGHHH. The crisis lies between the two of you guys. WORK FOR IT.

What the???!

Just a request, a guileless request…


Could you stop bragging about your complete personality change this New Year (2009)? Uggh. I can’t see the new you. I’m not blind, we’re not blind and definitely you are not blind. And it really tells me one thing that old habits die hard. They are indeed difficult to obliterate.


I do not sound like a fraught soul or what, but it just irks me so much whenever I feel the “airy” aura of this scoundrel.


And I’m ranting about this in three in the morning, and definitely there are no tears pouring in my God-forsaken face.



WTF.

'coz you had a bad day

It’s quite grating when you want to do something important like studying in advance for the super long exams next week and yet those nonsense paper works come to invade your schedule. Pffft.


I really have a bad feeling for next week: exhausting and dreadful.


Maybe I should follow Professor Obsioma’s advice: write the three processes of Cellular Respiration and post it everywhere inside the house. Hmm. Biochemistry is really challenging, as well as Genetics. It would be a disaster if these two subjects will have the same date for the second long exam. YIKES!!!


Okay, so I’m still practically worn-out from the trip and my throat starts to hurt. It’s a bad sign, actually. I abhor when history literally repeats itself. You don’t need to come back and haunt me, Mr. Sinusitis. You and Mr. Boredom should go to hell right now.


PRONTO!

Snapshot. Hotshot. Headshot.

Dites cela vous amour je pour toujours
jamais arrêt pas pour quoi que

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Not now. I am in a pseudo solitary confinement. I opted to be alone right now.


And right now (and I've been using the "now" word three times already), I feel sick. Despite having two exams for this day (which is completely normal...sad to say...), and suffering from sleep deprivation (also a normal thing for us), the weather is actually the culprit for the day. I don't know. I feel that my asthma's starting to develop, thanks Mother Nature, really. (-___-)

I really thought this is going to be the last day of exam for this month of January. I was wrong. We still have an exam next week. Crap. I thought I'm just going to be a lazy butthead after this day, well wait, forget about the lazy butthead thing, I still have to study for the almighty Biochem. Oh yes. I can't afford to cram for the second long since it requires extensive memorization and analysis, which I think the exam is already imminent.

I need to rest really. Sometimes, it's hard to choose between acads and health. Ack. :(

Yeah, so what if I'm the cream of the crop if my health is in "singko" condition? That's bullcrap, right?

Proper time management is the solution to this predicament.

But then again, it's in our human nature; we choose to party all night long and forget those responsibilities to oblivion.

It's still our fault. We don't have the right to blame earth's rotation. We don't have to rant on how time flies so fast.

BUT THEN AGAIN, I just ranted and wished that the earth's rotation is 72 hours instead of 24 hours moments ago. We don't have the right to blame others.

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See? I'm just ranting about nonsense things. Really.

I NEEEEEDDD TO REEEEEST (T______T)

Hangover

I want to end these nonsense things right now.
I want to have an eternal sleep.
And then I beg mother earth to slow down the planet's rotation.
Break the chains of isolation.
Open doors in distant lands.
Share our knowledge and experiences.
Message ringing loud and clear.
I don't want to procrastinate.
But I'm doing it right now.
I want to party all night long.
I like to move it, move it.
I like to move it, move it.
You like to.. MOVE IT!
Sometimes, the world experiences the Machiavellian way of life.
Utopia is not good within the state too.
Gain access to other cultures.
New horizons, broader dimensions.
Forge concord with our fellowmen.
Building bridges across the continents.
Oh, baby did you know I suffer?
Oh baby can you hear moan?

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My mind is spinning round and round and round
square and square and square
concentric, heliocentric, geocentric
star spangled banner
Whatever.

Too Mundane

There's nothing special about this entry.

But I think I can't afford of trailing the sanity of this page. HAHAHA. But hey, I will try my best to update my alter ego in the cyber space despite the ordeal that I’ve been experiencing today and most probably until the next three weeks. I still can’t believe that 2009 would welcome me to the sweltering dominion of Hades. (T____T)

But anyway, classmates from Heaven this is the absolute schedule of agony –este- Long Exams:


January 8, 2009 – MST 6 (Biodiversity Challenge)
January 9, 2009 – Zoo 3 Lec (Invertebrate Zoology) either 8.30 – 11.00 am or 5.30 – 7.00 pm schedule. I prefer the latter than the former. Whattchathink??!

January 13, 2009 – Bio 30 Lab (Genetics) – Room 112, 2.30 – 4.00 pm.
January 14, 2009 – Zoo 3 Lab (for EF-1L class only)


At least after two to three weeks, we’re going to start carousing in various places in Mindanao – field trips in Camiguin, Lake Sebu, Mt. Hamiguitan and other places are already imminent. YAHOO!!! Though, I still have to plan for our MST 6 field trip. I don’t want the place. I opt to attend the Camiguin trip. I’ve never been to that place. Ack.

On second thought, I had this compunction of picking number 18. Drat. I honestly don’t like to be the leader of the group. But I don’t have a choice but to accept the responsibility.

Ooooooh, I have a bad feeling about this.

Ooohhh... Snap Back!

2009.

Year of the Ox.

And I’ve just realized that for seven straight years, Christmas and New Year here in Davao is awfully lackluster. Forgive me mayor, but I think our city deserves to have at least a colorful night on welcoming the New Year. It would be better if the officials would facilitate the fireworks in a safe place. Don’t you guys agree?

On the lighter side, hospitals in the whole city reported zero casualties.

On a much lighter side, roads are very clean.

AND THE LIGHTEST PART OF IT IS THIS: The air is clean. Ahhh. Fresh air. I don’t need to rush to the nearest Chemist (‘coz I’m from London, LOL) just to buy nebules.

No more thug-thug and the squeaking sound of the nebuliser.

And yeah, I need to get back to work. Fuck. I think the schedule for my Zoo 3 Lec (Invertebrate Zoology) is final and it’s already imminent – this Monday. I really hate it when you start your year in a dreadful manner. The eighth of January means the same thing. Give us at least one week, please.

I’m tired. I’ve slept at around six. Yeah apparently I was doodling something in photoshop. The best part of it is not the product though. I have just ym-ed one of my closest friends in high school for at least five hours. And five hours is NOT enough. And I crave for another five more hours! Haha. But anyway it was fun, really.

Are horses lucky this year? I think the luckiest year for horses is 2010.

…and I was born in the year of the horses. The year was 1990. Ugh, great! I’m turning 19 this year, after eight months. I’m getting old. And I need some damn magic in my life.

Enough of this shit talk. I’m just really… really… zzzzzzz.

OPTIMISM and AUTISM

"To be a successful biologist, one must know how to DRAW."

God. My hands were all tired after three grueling hours of drawing circles, then various regular shapes of a plant's cross section of roots, leaves and stem. Mind you, those freaking circles drove me crazy. My hands were shaking but it was a big accomplishment though.

Yeahyeah. So last Monday, I went to school to register for my subjects next semester. So after a day or two of weariness and anxiety, I had finalized my schedule for the next sem. So, here it is:

TUESDAY'S DEADLY and THURSDAY'S NOT. STILL, no Mondays. Weehah.

Maybe I'll take an advance class in Statistics and History this SUMMER.

Last Monday, we went to People's Park and you guessed it right, we enjoyed the newly built park. I uploaded tons of pictures in my album so if you're curious about our wackiest adventure so far, just browse my photo album. Hehe. :))

TUESDAY. We had a surprise quiz in our Bio 3 Lab. Actually, it was a surprise as well as an interactive quiz. First we dissected a frog, then after which, we cut and opened her gut (since the frog was female) and identified the different parts of the DIGESTIVE SYSTEM. I don't find it yucky or eeky, it's just, I'm immune with these gooey stuffs. Haha. So, I got a perfect ten , but I almost got one mistake because I was quite confused with the pancreas and the eggs. They were both yellow. ♫ LOOK AT THE STARS, THEY'RE SHINING ON YOU .. COZ THEY WERE ALL YELLOW ♫. Waaa. SABAW NANAMAN ako. Whatever.

MIND YOU, her heart was still beating while we conducted an "academic operation" to her digestive system.

And her lungs were inflated. Kawawa. But we have to do this.

At that day, Joie had an LSS AGAIN - Rihanna's PLEASE DON'T STOP THE MUSIC. Hahaha. I just remembered Kim's ESnips Music Player on his blog. His player had a cool baby chick on it and danced like a funny duckling, yung tipong pina EGYPTIAN dance step ang ulo. Bwahaha. So, I introduced that dance step to Joie and Mark. We were all like ducklings at that moment, well hanggang ngayon. Hahaha.


WEDNESDAY. As usual. I woke up LATE, again. I didn't woke up with my alarm (palibasa ang alarm tone ko is FAIRYTALE by ENYA). Naku. Instead I was awaken by mom's CREEPY voice.

"KUUUUYYY, quarter to eight na, oh ano, may balak ka pang pumunta ng UP?"

Waaa. It's WEDNESDAY and first period ko is CHEM 17, 8:30 am! Waaa. So I didn't ate breakfast, just drank my cold frappe, took a bath, tapos got dressed with my PE uniform then off I went to CSM. I arrived five minutes before the time. HECK. Our teacher was ALSO LATE. We waited for 15 minutes before we could finally disperse outside room 113. It was 14 minutes after 8:30 am. Sheara, Ralph and Mark can't hardly wait so they went outside the room. Minutes later, they went back to the room, panting as if they were chased by a wild animal. Yun pala, paparating na pala ang wild animal sa room. Hahaha. So we continued the reports, lectures, just like an ordinary Chem lecture.

In our lab, I'm not used to Alberto's approach. Good thing for those who experienced and got immune with his approach for the whole semester. Yuri, Sheara, Cha, Joie, and Mikko were all immune by his way of teaching. I found it weird since he talked in a BRITISH accent just for FUN. Waaa. Natawa nalang ako kahit I found it corny and annoying. BWAHAHA. Peace Alberto Baloney. Hahaha. =))

Today's ASH WEDNESDAY but this idea didn't came across to my subconscious mind, that is to attend the ASH WEDNESDAY Mass. My classmates invited me and since it's still 4pm, and we're just a mile away from Immaculate Conception Parish, I decided to attend the Eucharistic Celebration of the Ash Wednesday.

♫ WE RISE AGAIN FROM ASHES ♫

FROM NOW ON, BAWAL NA ANG PORK, BAWAL NA ANG BEANS, BAWAL NANG KUMAIN. Waaa. Joke lang. Nangangayat na ako 'di pa ako kakain. But other forms of sacrifice will do. As long as you'll do some penance in this Lenten Season.

Tomorrow's Thursday. Another wonderful lesson in Trigonometry (yihee), Long Quiz in Bio 3 Lab, which fortunately memorized ko na ang parts ng vertebrates, pelvic girdle, pectoral girdle and anterior limb ng frog. Hahaha. I just love it.

BTW. I found this wonderful song entitled You Had a Bad Day by Daniel Powter. Actually, it's one of the OST song in the movie ALVIN and THE CHIPMUNKS. TAKTE! Di pa nanglibre si Chipmunk Kristalala para sa movie-ng to. Oh well. I'll just buy a dvd copy of this diminutive movie.

Where is the moment we needed the most
You kick up the leaves and the magic is lost
They tell me your blue skies fade to grey
They tell me your passion's gone away
And I don't need no carryin' on

You stand in the line just to hit a new low
You're faking a smile with the coffee to go
You tell me your life's been way off line
You're falling to pieces everytime
And I don't need no carryin' on

You had a bad day
You're taking one down
You sing a sad song just to turn it around
You say you don't know
You tell me don't lie
You work at a smile and you go for a ride
You had a bad day
The camera don't lie
You're coming back down and you really don't mind
You had a bad day
You had a bad day

Well you need a blue sky holiday
The point is they laugh at what you say
And I don't need no carryin' on

You had a bad day
You're taking one down
You sing a sad song just to turn it around
You say you don't know
You tell me don't lie
You work at a smile and you go for a ride
You had a bad day
The camera don't lie
You're coming back down and you really don't mind
You had a bad day
You had a bad day

(Oh.. Holiday..)

Sometimes the system goes on the brink
And the whole thing turns out wrong
You might not make it back and you know
That you could be well oh that strong
And I'm not wrong

So where is the passion when you need it the most
Oh you and I
You kick up the leaves and the magic is lost

Cause you had a bad day
You're taking one down
You sing a sad song just to turn it around
You say you don't know
You tell me don't lie
You work at a smile and you go for a ride
You had a bad day
The camera don't lie
You're coming back down and you really don't mind
You had a bad day
You had a bad day

Wee. I just loved this song. Kanta 'to ng mga OPTIMISTIC na AUTISTIC. Hahaha. Lol. I'll just leave you this message. I won't tell when and where I took this pic. PEACE OUT. Hehehe :D

CRAP - and I just hate this.

Define CRAP. First, it's a noun. Second, it's a subtle substitution for the scandalous word, shit. Third, it's a CRAP. CRAP CRAP CRAP! Ugh! CRAP! I just hate this.


For the past few days I found myself more irritable than the previous days or weeks. If my parents wanted me to do something, like the simplest household chores, I'll just grumble about it and after that, the two gremlins would just scold me because of my disobedience. Ugh. I know I've been a bad son lately. It's just like, I dunno, honestly I couldn't understand myself as of this moment. I dunno. I can't determine whether If I'm happy or not. Everything in my life is not that perfect. But hell, my family's strong, I studied in a prestigious school, I lived in a concrete house, I have lots of clothes to wear and I eat almost 6 times a day. So practically there's always a reason why I should be HAPPY with my life. Ugh. I'm so stupid. Am I experiencing the crucial stage of a teenager? Am I a bipolar teen? Do I need to consult a psychiatrist? OR am I just overreacting?!


I dunno. Kung may hihingiin ako sa kanila, ibibigay agad nila sa akin but if they asked me a LITTLE FAVOR, tinatanggihan ko. Ugh. I'm so ashamed with my stupid behavior. I know. I'm not an ideal son that they had wished for. I'm so sorry. I know you can't read this but it's just I'm very disappointed to myself. My actions lately were very frustrating. I know both of you were disappointed to me. But it's just partly I can't just blame myself. I'm trying my best to be good, but it's JUST... JUST.... UGH. I dunno. Crap.


Every dinner, they would just give me painful sermons. It's my own FAULT though but hell, I just wished that I'm deaf and I will never hear those upsetting sermons. Uggh. Erase erase. But I don't wanna be a disabled person. I just hate the way things that are getting on to me.


I'm a happy and optimistic person. I have always a positive views in life. If a certain problem arises, I would look forward to solve that dilemma in no time. BUT. Ugh. Never mind.

And I just hate myself for being so STUPID lately. :((