Define CRAP. First, it's a noun. Second, it's a subtle substitution for the scandalous word, shit. Third, it's a CRAP. CRAP CRAP CRAP! Ugh! CRAP! I just hate this.
For the past few days I found myself more irritable than the previous days or weeks. If my parents wanted me to do something, like the simplest household chores, I'll just grumble about it and after that, the two gremlins would just scold me because of my disobedience. Ugh. I know I've been a bad son lately. It's just like, I dunno, honestly I couldn't understand myself as of this moment. I dunno. I can't determine whether If I'm happy or not. Everything in my life is not that perfect. But hell, my family's strong, I studied in a prestigious school, I lived in a concrete house, I have lots of clothes to wear and I eat almost 6 times a day. So practically there's always a reason why I should be HAPPY with my life. Ugh. I'm so stupid. Am I experiencing the crucial stage of a teenager? Am I a bipolar teen? Do I need to consult a psychiatrist? OR am I just overreacting?!
I dunno. Kung may hihingiin ako sa kanila, ibibigay agad nila sa akin but if they asked me a LITTLE FAVOR, tinatanggihan ko. Ugh. I'm so ashamed with my stupid behavior. I know. I'm not an ideal son that they had wished for. I'm so sorry. I know you can't read this but it's just I'm very disappointed to myself. My actions lately were very frustrating. I know both of you were disappointed to me. But it's just partly I can't just blame myself. I'm trying my best to be good, but it's JUST... JUST.... UGH. I dunno. Crap.
Every dinner, they would just give me painful sermons. It's my own FAULT though but hell, I just wished that I'm deaf and I will never hear those upsetting sermons. Uggh. Erase erase. But I don't wanna be a disabled person. I just hate the way things that are getting on to me.
I'm a happy and optimistic person. I have always a positive views in life. If a certain problem arises, I would look forward to solve that dilemma in no time. BUT. Ugh. Never mind.
And I just hate myself for being so STUPID lately. :((
For the past few days I found myself more irritable than the previous days or weeks. If my parents wanted me to do something, like the simplest household chores, I'll just grumble about it and after that, the two gremlins would just scold me because of my disobedience. Ugh. I know I've been a bad son lately. It's just like, I dunno, honestly I couldn't understand myself as of this moment. I dunno. I can't determine whether If I'm happy or not. Everything in my life is not that perfect. But hell, my family's strong, I studied in a prestigious school, I lived in a concrete house, I have lots of clothes to wear and I eat almost 6 times a day. So practically there's always a reason why I should be HAPPY with my life. Ugh. I'm so stupid. Am I experiencing the crucial stage of a teenager? Am I a bipolar teen? Do I need to consult a psychiatrist? OR am I just overreacting?!
I dunno. Kung may hihingiin ako sa kanila, ibibigay agad nila sa akin but if they asked me a LITTLE FAVOR, tinatanggihan ko. Ugh. I'm so ashamed with my stupid behavior. I know. I'm not an ideal son that they had wished for. I'm so sorry. I know you can't read this but it's just I'm very disappointed to myself. My actions lately were very frustrating. I know both of you were disappointed to me. But it's just partly I can't just blame myself. I'm trying my best to be good, but it's JUST... JUST.... UGH. I dunno. Crap.
Every dinner, they would just give me painful sermons. It's my own FAULT though but hell, I just wished that I'm deaf and I will never hear those upsetting sermons. Uggh. Erase erase. But I don't wanna be a disabled person. I just hate the way things that are getting on to me.
I'm a happy and optimistic person. I have always a positive views in life. If a certain problem arises, I would look forward to solve that dilemma in no time. BUT. Ugh. Never mind.
And I just hate myself for being so STUPID lately. :((
